Betrayal, well that's not new to me - not at all

It hurts when you put so much trust into a person but they fucked it over. Like really. I'm done being all positive about anything. I'm absolutely done. I always tried to be positive along the way. But it just doesn't work like that. A friend promised me not to tell anyone about my secret. It really is a big secret and I could have not imagine how anyone would react knowing it. Then, there she goes, telling my darkest secret to that someone. I dont have any fucking idea why she did that. Maybe she was out of topic, maybe she was trying to impress him. Since that someone means a lot to her. My god. Words can never decribe how horrible I am feeling now. I knew this for quite a long time now. But when I see her, I acted like nothing ever happen because all the good things she has done to me. But this is too much. I always treat my freinds nicely as I would expected them would do the same thing for me. Guess, she only cares about her online friends. Oh what do I care. Oh wait, if I dont care why would I even wasting my time writing about my dissapointments. Guess, I do care - in fact I care a lot! Sigh, what a cruel I'm living in.